Tuesday, August 12
I picked out a new blogskin. Because I adore Snoopy and I love how erm, vintage *in need of a better word* this is. I hope the post isn't hard to read because of the background.
I met one of my friends Jason from the company. He needed my help in something so we sat at Toast Box then went to walk around while waiting for Chris to meet us. Apparently Chris overslept for army so he took a day off. We went to CitiBank and met Cheryl there the Xiao Hai Bu Ben actress. I knew her personally cuz we worked together before. Plus she knew one of my friends, Shumei.
We talked then I asked if she'd heard from Shumei lately. Because she called me yesterday and GUESS WHAT.
SHUMEI
IS GETTING
ENGAGED
YES, SHUMEI.
Although I knew she was gonna be the first among us to get married, I didnt expect it to be so fast. Both Cheryl and I roared over it and I gave her Shumei's number and told her the date of her engagement party.
I don't know if I'm going lol..... *wipes tears from my eyes* (tears of laughter mind you, not because I'm touched) Shumei invited Chris too but I highly doubt he's going. When I told him the news, he got all relationship-y about marrying before knowing your partner well enough, which of course promptly killed my jovial mood for the rest of the evening.
Haha kk anyway I met up with Jonathan after lunch with Chris and Jason. I went to his place. I hadn't been there for so long. Everything looked the same. 'Cept Jon's room; more toys -.-
I'd brought my laptop along to play game but what a moment for the game to undergo maintenance -_-||
We still had other things to do like watch Olympics and we chatted about relationships for awhile. He gave me more practical advice about how to avoid quarrels. After that he taught me a few tactics of martial arts self defense. It was interesting learning about different ways on how to inflict pain on the other party (muahaha).
We left for dinner at 7pm and I went to rent my DVD to watch too. We walked around then sat down so he could download a song I wanted from my laptop. We chatted awhile more and then he left to meet his girlfriend.
It was weird spending time with him again. There was a gap there that I felt. I could still remember how things were between me and him a few years ago. While we were talking I was feeling down because again I wished that I could turn back time and get everything back the way it was, which was to me, the right way.
But after talking to him for awhile made me realise that he was happy, happier than before. It also made me see that there wasn't any point in wishing time could turn back and I would be in the past which I loved so much. Instead of doing that, I could just accept the way things are right now and make the best of it. Instead of making myself feel miserable I could just remember the past and live for the present.
I've always either been refusing to think of the past or wallowing in it for days with misery and regret.
I won't force myself to accept the big change that happened before my eyes. Forcing myself would make me even more miserable and resentful. I'm not big on accepting things that I don't like. But its funny how other people can be so positive while I always seem to be so negative.
He said one thing, no matter how long I've been having the bad habit of negativity, just remember that I have another 60 years to change a habit I've had for just 20 years. He was exaggerating about that 60 years bit but he made sense. I could change myself if I want to and choose how long I want to take to change.
Jon still knows me better than anyone. Even Chris. I'm just glad that we had the chance to meet again.
On a lighter note, who wants to go to Shumei's engagement party xD
I met one of my friends Jason from the company. He needed my help in something so we sat at Toast Box then went to walk around while waiting for Chris to meet us. Apparently Chris overslept for army so he took a day off. We went to CitiBank and met Cheryl there the Xiao Hai Bu Ben actress. I knew her personally cuz we worked together before. Plus she knew one of my friends, Shumei.
We talked then I asked if she'd heard from Shumei lately. Because she called me yesterday and GUESS WHAT.
SHUMEI
IS GETTING
ENGAGED
Although I knew she was gonna be the first among us to get married, I didnt expect it to be so fast. Both Cheryl and I roared over it and I gave her Shumei's number and told her the date of her engagement party.
I don't know if I'm going lol..... *wipes tears from my eyes* (tears of laughter mind you, not because I'm touched) Shumei invited Chris too but I highly doubt he's going. When I told him the news, he got all relationship-y about marrying before knowing your partner well enough, which of course promptly killed my jovial mood for the rest of the evening.
Haha kk anyway I met up with Jonathan after lunch with Chris and Jason. I went to his place. I hadn't been there for so long. Everything looked the same. 'Cept Jon's room; more toys -.-
I'd brought my laptop along to play game but what a moment for the game to undergo maintenance -_-||
We still had other things to do like watch Olympics and we chatted about relationships for awhile. He gave me more practical advice about how to avoid quarrels. After that he taught me a few tactics of martial arts self defense. It was interesting learning about different ways on how to inflict pain on the other party (muahaha).
We left for dinner at 7pm and I went to rent my DVD to watch too. We walked around then sat down so he could download a song I wanted from my laptop. We chatted awhile more and then he left to meet his girlfriend.
It was weird spending time with him again. There was a gap there that I felt. I could still remember how things were between me and him a few years ago. While we were talking I was feeling down because again I wished that I could turn back time and get everything back the way it was, which was to me, the right way.
But after talking to him for awhile made me realise that he was happy, happier than before. It also made me see that there wasn't any point in wishing time could turn back and I would be in the past which I loved so much. Instead of doing that, I could just accept the way things are right now and make the best of it. Instead of making myself feel miserable I could just remember the past and live for the present.
I've always either been refusing to think of the past or wallowing in it for days with misery and regret.
I won't force myself to accept the big change that happened before my eyes. Forcing myself would make me even more miserable and resentful. I'm not big on accepting things that I don't like. But its funny how other people can be so positive while I always seem to be so negative.
He said one thing, no matter how long I've been having the bad habit of negativity, just remember that I have another 60 years to change a habit I've had for just 20 years. He was exaggerating about that 60 years bit but he made sense. I could change myself if I want to and choose how long I want to take to change.
Jon still knows me better than anyone. Even Chris. I'm just glad that we had the chance to meet again.
On a lighter note, who wants to go to Shumei's engagement party xD
michi ]|[ 22:01